Monday, April 03, 2006
today isn't a great day. im feeling not good. and im actually not hungry at all now. haiz... if only sighing can make me feel better.
ok school started off fine. but why couldnt it end fine too... haiz... in summary, my table tennis skill is stagnant. not improving. and i don know why my confidence level is so low... reached the minimum that it has nv reached before. maybe i should just be benched. that would be better. haiz... the feeling isn't good. it sucks. yea, lost both the matches i played. i won't and i don't want to try to find excuses to cover up my loss. i'm not pro at all. haha i hate to admit, but i'm really lousy. -.-' oh wells... maybe cux of the expectations ppl have of me, pressure plus pressure equals double pressure. haha i'm sorry gals. i shouldnt have disappoint u gals. :( im truly sorry and i cant help feeling guilty cux somehow im to blame. haiz. sry mr tsang. :( ok i shall rearrange my trains of thought and continue fighting tmr =) hahas jiayou k njc!!! (: i'm fine and i'll be good soon. the higher my hopes, the harder i fall. everyone has been telling me winning isn't everything. it's the process that counts and winning is just a bonus. haha, its easy to say, easy to accept, but not easy at all to put into practice. lol, thinking back on all the trainings, the time we've spent training. haha shrugss i shan't think anymore. we'll just try our very best =D acceptance is happiness.
and my maple character kanna hacked le. haiz. i hate hackers. i really hate them! :(
sad+sad=double sadness!
or am i feeling numb now again.
teach me how to smile now at this moment... (:
but i'll smile again tmr =D
tues(tmr) against acjc.
wed against rjc.
fading... returning...