Friday, July 14, 2006
(: haha i finally finished stoning for the whole afternoon. oh man... haha i kept on complaining. oops. sorry. =X sorry ppl to put up with my grumbles xD hahaha. haiz. i think im so not myself today. don know why im so emotional today. just couldnt control myself at times. many times in fact. haiz. sorry sorry. and thanks ppl for putting up with me and being so nice and patient with me (: hehe. thanks alot alot alot k... serious! =D hahas.
today started off badly, with me being a little late for morning assembly and sorta screwing up my duty. =/ then econs was disheartening. civics wasnt worth mentioning, gp was demoralising. haiz i cant stand myself for screwing up every single subject. i hate this feeling. maybe that contributed greatly to my emotional instability. hahas i wonder how im gonna pass my promos... then after sch, lagged in sch, PW group working file was also a flop la. haiz. my PW sure die already... after that just lagged ard. stone abit. then set up for CO alumni night and continued stoning throughout the whole event. haha luckily i had ppl to accompany me. =D thanks guys, esp chakyan (: cux u practically stayed throughout the thing with me! hehe and mingxuan and dhika who helped me set up and everyone else who helped me keep! lol if not later i stone into depression then die liao. hahaha... =X hmm and sorry everyone who heard me complaining. today im really super not myself. i couldnt even control myself. stoning has become a great habit of mine -.-' if only i could use all those time i take to stone to do some work, maybe i will be able to score so much better =/ anyway the CO alumni night was rather successful la. nth much also. then glad that the angklung and harmonica concert was a success also (: with usual, shihui malu-ing herself? hahaha
sorry for not being able to control myself. sorry for complaining so much. sorry for being so unreasonable at times. sorry for being so useless. sorry for almost wanting to give up. sorry sorry sorry sorry. other that that, i don know what to say. give me time to learn and i will prove to u i can be better than this. and thanks for being so nice and understanding (: i really appreciate it alot alot. i hate the feeling of insecurity, but i don wanna be so dependent anymore. i will work harder (: haha, sometimes i really admire ppl around me who are so independent and so decisive, and i wonder if i will ever be able to do that, esp with things and ppl i'm not familiar with. and i wonder if i'm up to it, but i don like to regret. i don like the 2 words, "what if". it just makes me even sadder.
but im glad today ended off well! =D and i like it this way.