Tuesday, July 18, 2006
my poor left eye...
oh well. this happened since ytd la. but i thought it wouldnt be so serious and apparently i'm wrong! -.- arghs. haha my left eye was super sore and red today when i woke up. no, i should say i couldnt even open it at all. merely half the size of my right eye -.- sounds... haha weird and stupid. but nevertheless, i don know why i still went to school. -.- i think i'm dumb la, cux i left school after i reach. which means i came to school for only bout 25mins. haha so cute right... hmmm, and left everything in sch... haha so i have nothing to do now =X after i left school, went to the clinic near my house. waited for bout 25minutes for the doctor to come and i was 3rd on the queue...
i went into the doctor's room. just me and the doctor. i think this should be the first time i went to see the doctor alone. ok, so i'm not very independent am i... and i have to admit that i was afraid and a little bit nervous. the first qns he asked me was, "do u wear contacts?" and i answered yes. then he advised me not to wear it for a week. and i guess i will say byebye to my contacts for at least a week. cux i don wanna go blind. after that, the doctor told me that he wanted to do a test on me... arghs. he used a small little piece of paper that was rather luminous and told me that he's doing a test to see if my sore eye is serious, whether or not i have to be admitted to the hospital. when i heard the word "hospital", a feeling of fear and anxiety struck me -.- although i appeard to be super calm, i was actually quite shocked and frightened! haha, then the doctor told me that my eye will be luminous for bout an hour to 2hours... =X haha... after putting the paper into my eye, he took it out and asked me to roll my eyeball with my eyelid shut. then he switched off the lights and shined a blue light on my eye. and he gave me a mirror to ask me to spot for a green dot of light. LUCKILY I DIDNT SPOT ANY GREEN LIGHT! cux he told me if there was a green spot in my eye then, i had to be admitted to the hospital! haizz... so scary! i don wan my eye to turn blind. im scared, super scared in fact. =/
then the doctor gave me 2days of MC... haiz... so sian. have been sleeping since 9am when i got home to 1+pm... now im at home while everyone's in school. and i feel bad skipping table tennis later. but cant be help. i really hope my left eye will heal soon enough! i really wanna go to sch tmr for comm service day leh. haha wanna join in the fun...
i really feel terrible. the sore wouldnt fade and the pain wouldnt go away :( i swear i'm gonna be good to my eyes. don wanna hurt them anymore! haiz.. the pain in my left eye now is like its gonna go blind anytime. and i don like this feeling. sobs...
if only crying will make heal my left eye, i would shed all my tears today.
haiz i feel like listening to the song "heal the world" by michael jackson...
sad sad and even sadder... :'( depression seems nv far away...