yea.
i cant help but feel that way.
i think i get easily agitated these days.
i think i get offended easily nowadays.
i cant help but feel like im not myself anymore.
i think i don care much anymore.
but im truly sorry.
the feeling's just so different from before.
sometimes i wish i could have done more.
sometimes i wish i hadnt taken that step.
a place i used to seek comfort has become a place im wary of.
and i don know how much faith i've left in me to carry on.
i think i know better than anyone else how i feel.
and maybe im just trying to hide.
maybe i should change my opinion.
maybe i should try harder.

my junior once told me i used to be very happy and cheery way back.
but now i look so tired and drained to be happy anymore.
i don know how true this is. but it seems true to me to a certain extent.
i don know how long more i can hold on.
im not being emo now.
just that sometimes i miss being myself.
and i don know how to find myself back
i wanna go back to those good old days.
sometimes it feels like im living in the past.
im trying to drown myself in dramas again.
forget the world and bury myself in them.
haha =X
and i don like to be accused.
-but still i will cling on to the blind belief that everything will be alright.
maybe i shouldnt have come across that.
though i know its true. and its a fact.
i hope the guilt would go away.

haha happy birthday.

*i wanna watch music and lyrics!*
9:15 PM